still here

So i'm still here and still alive. Why can I never keep a blog going?

"The thinner I become the fatter I feel".

I'm now 48kg (as of yesterday). Which is obviously a pathetic weight loss since when I last posted in August my weight was 52kg-ish.

I'm still glad it's going down - my "revised" goals are:
By 3 December - 45kg
By 2 Jan - 39.9kg (Under 40!!)
By 1 Feb - 35kg

So it's basically 5kg a month.

But anyway, back to my statement above. I'm now only 3kg from having a BMI under 20, considered by most accounts to be underweight. What a piece of sh*t. There is no way I am almost underweight. When I was obese (yes - obese at almost 70kg), I felt fat, don't get me wrong, but now it's like there are particular areas which just disgust me.

I have tonsilitus (I think) so it hurts to swallow. Which is good for weight loss. But makes me feel miserable :(